AnneMarie Ladlad created this digital space on Formation of a Filipinx American for women-identifying filipinxs to individually + collectively #reclaim the phrase #WalangHiya, which has been traditionally used to shame. I wrote this poem-prose hybrid as a contribution to the project and my personal reclamation.Read More
A Saturday of singing and jamming!Read More
On March 10, 2017, 6:30-9:00pm, Queens Arts Council hosted "Celebrating Queens Women Artists"- a tribute to Queens-based women and emerging artists in public service, business, technology, and community development programs.Read More
Mobilizing + marching with Gabriela New YorkRead More
Today is my 27th birthday.
And I'm excited to keep on growing into the woman I'm turning out to be. And though author Neil Gaiman's new year's resolutions continue to be words of inspiration that take me from one year to the next -- this year is one I feel more empowered than ever to take responsibility for my decisions + being held accountable for my actions. It is about damn time to nourish relationships with myself and with my loved ones. Where 26 was about exploration, this next year will be about enrichment.
- 5 quarts civic action + social justice
- 4 pints culinary curiosity
- 3 cups world travel
- 2 fluid ounces music
- 1 tbsp business
Stir + simmer by:
- Dedicating more energy into Filipino + women's empowerment organizations (like Gabriela New York)
- Developing a new creative skill: video editing (and making meaningful content)
- Planning an international trip with a purposeful learning intention (Philippines)
- Committing to music + artistic collaborative gigs + opportunities (be more proactive than reactive)
- Improving business tactics (work smarter, not harder at my job and with my clients)
For the first time in my life, I know what I want out of it: building passionately + purposefully with meaningful people. I don't really care about networking and connecting en masse anymore. And it's all thanks to the soul-searching theme that seasoned my 26th year of living. Choosing to let go of negative energy and toxic people polluting our experiences and opportunities for happiness is one thing, but choosing to accept their presence as challenges to learn from is a more strengthening form of interacting with them. Because let's face it: we cannot evade those kinds of people or those kinds of energies because they exist and take up space on this earth just as much as we do. Rather, I encourage us to be weary of the ways of the world, and then make lemonade out of lemons. Moving forward, strengthening reciprocal relationships are what I choose to matter the most to me *[friendships + family]* and especially, my relationship with my own self. Too often I am harmful and hurtful to me: I over-criticize and deprecate my failures and setbacks. In everything I do and in all that I touch, I must balance my approach with authentic intent, mindful impact, and humble accountability.
Fuck 2016. But, HELL YES to all the celebratory moments that shaped this past year. May the milestones below launch a strong 27th year, and beyond.
- Explored and unpacked my relationship with food and its role in our communities
- Traveled to Belize with my best friends in the whole world
- Celebrated the marriage of two incredible friends and human beings, Marianne & Colin, in North Carolina
- Went an entire month eating no meat
- Reunited with old family friends (The Johnston Family! in Florida),
- Visited Rochester for the first time ever and met my love's Scarciotta + Russell extended families
- Reflected and realized what I want out of life while sipping wine in the mountains with Jeremy Knight in LA
- Spent time with my love and introduced him to some of family while sailing around Lake Mead in Vegas
- Got a 102 degree fever while in Washington DC
- Threw my mom a 50th birthday celebration
- Pierced my septum
- Inked up two new tattoos (spoon + fork and world map)
- Moved in with my loving partner into Opera House Lofts #SalaKubo
- Had many a various moment actin' a fool with one of oldest friends, Greg Joseph
- Quenched all of the music feels at Afropunk, seeing Michael Blume, St. Paul and the Broken Bones, ThirdStory, Allen Stone, and Bernhoft
- Voted for a non-white male president for the third time in my life
- Reunited with the fabulous DeOren Robinson and saw one of his pieces at an art opening! Blast from my high school past :)
- Started practicing yoga more regularly
- Had my heart stop and devastate during the final minutes of the UNC v. Villanova game. Never forget.
- Saw my love perform the lead role in a Brooklyn play, Salome on the Rocks
- Learned of the "bruised apple" metaphor during a one-on-one meeting with founder + visionary Robert Egger of LA Kitchen, a community organization that reclaims healthy, local food that would otherwise go to waste, and uses it to empower, nourish, and engage the community.
- Recorded my vocals on a few tracks with Russ Soper for an upcoming rock album project he's working on
- Rehearsed and performed with Ernest Ernie & The Sincerities
- Built, launched, and maintained my own personal website
- Started writing a book
- Began the planning stages for my Filipino Soul Food culinary concept/project
- Started writing monthly "LIT Lit(erature)" articles for TheGIRLMOB, a digital sisterhood highlighting + celebrating women of color
- Joined the Brooklyn team of The Black Pearl Project, proactively volunteering for #HashtagLunchbag to feed our community, and coordinating communications for #PreciousGoods packaging feminine hygiene products for local women's shelters
- Actively engaged in Toklas Society of Women in Food & Hospitality opportunities
- Connected with GABRIELA NEW YORK to start regularly participating in 2017 events, a global organization with local activations advancing women's rights in the Philippines and around the world
- Got fed a celery stick by Mario Batali when I was staffing a segment for work
- Met Martha Stewart at a restaurant supply store
- Cut my hair into a rather short bob
- Made Becky with the Split Ends a thing?
- Shared an Uber Pool with Charly of Chargaux
- Sold my furniture on Craigslist and through that random incidence, met two really great gals involved in food justice, Kimberly Conchada (who bought said furniture) + Lee Harman
- Got wittier? Idk (demogorgons / and waking up in 2001)
- Ran into the talented dudes of Happy Abandon one night at Rockwood Music Hall (blast from college days past!)
- Got headbutted by a pidgeon
- Had an aching, challenging year in my career and made it through on the other side.
- Secured and supervised an on-site filming with Morgan Freeman for Season 2 of National Geographic's The Story of God. Fact: when Morgan Freeman says your name, you'll never be able to hear it said in any other way ever again.
- Secured and supervised a feature BuzzFeed interview with Tove Lo at Minus5 Ice Bar
- Pitched, coordinated + executed a two-day radio interview tour for John Fogerty
- Supervised on-site filming + feature interview of Chef Morimoto for CBS This Morning
- Landed a live cooking demo with Chef John DeLucie at Bedford & Co. for Harper's Bazaar
- Secured and staffed the Harper's Bazaar Facebook Live crew at Minus5 Ice Bar, and a live cocktail demo for House Beautiful.
- Opened the 80th Anniversary season of the iconic Rink at Rockefeller Center with over 2 billion media impressions
- Secured and supervised Max Berlinger's "Life as a Runway" photoshoot + interviews at The Rink at Rockefeller Center for The New York Times
- Supervised on-site filming + feature of The Wirecutter's Top 5 Winter Boots picks at Minus5 Ice Bar on Good Morning America and a full segment of "Pop Quizine" on ABC's The Chew
- Worked interviews at Rock Center Cafe for Democracy Plaza during Election Night at The Rink at Rockefeller Center
- Hung out with Chef Morimoto a few times more inside the test kitchens of Food & Wine and Saveur
- Spent a lot of time with owner of Rao's Frank Pellegrino, Jr. on the set of HARRY, Good Day New York, and Huffington Post for Rao's Specialty Foods marinara sauces.
And I'm just getting started. Thank you for reading!
Police brutality abroad.
As a 2nd-gen FilAm millennial, I'm having a lot of trouble connecting with first generation Filipino-Americans on the subject of President Duterte. Most feedback I get from my elders is along the lines of "just be glad we don't live there anymore. It's always been better in the States which is why we fought so hard and sacrificed so much to be here." And then everyone moves on to other less heavy dialogue. It's dismissive actually and quite honestly pisses me off - feeding into this fucked mentality of "oh we don't have to worry about that now, those days are in the past, we're Americans." Even in the Twitter universe, the general discussion is from white folks saying things like "this is an exceptional piece of journalism" or "stunning work capturing a horrifying topic"
...like straight up praising the journalist/media outlet as the focal point of conversation rather than actually talking about what's going on here - as if this is something so foreign that we cannot even connect to it at home.
But we can. And that's what's so painful to me.
Duterte has publicly endorsed Trump. Dark humor memes are circling around of him, Putin, Trump, and Xi being the new era faces representing the "modern Axis powers." Trump says Duterte is handling drug problems the "the right way."
This is Duterte's Philippines.
"AS MY TIME IN THE PHILIPPINES WORE ON, the killings seemed to become more brazen. Police officers appeared to do little to hide their involvement in what were essentially extrajudicial executions. Nanlaban had become a dark joke.
“There is a new way of dying in the Philippines,” said Redentor C. Ulsano, the police superintendent in the Tondo district. He smiled and held his wrists together in front of him, pretending to be handcuffed."
I'm not sure what it is I'm searching for in posting this. Maybe just a safe space to share this. Maybe some words of hope. Maybe some insight. Idk, but thank you so much for reading this post, and thank you especially for reading the photo essay.
Here's the photo essay:
The virulent populace of Trump America sees this election as permission to [re]act on hatred. Not even 24 hours after the election and this part of the world is already gloomier.
The racist, xenophobic, misogynistic and homophobic rhetoric that fueled Trump's campaign has empowered a monstrous dynamic.
Yes, macro riots are emerging all over the country. Those riots are groups of citizens mobilizing as a reaction of despair and desperation to the reality that we've elected a demagogue.
But these patterns linked here...these are also riots, in my opinion. Riots that are happening on more micro levels. The quiet riots that happen as individual - but frequent and patterned - instances. The quiet riots that are terrifyingly infiltrating people in public (and private!) spaces that were once just a part of their regular routine day-to-days. So of course media can't capture these instances: they don't make the best broll footage of wide-angle shots when compared to the kind of footage captured in mobilized macro riots.
But these quiet riots are happening. And they are not any less violent than the acts happening on your TV screens.
It's a battleground out there, y'all. Please look out for one another and take care of each other.
Original post with images: https://www.facebook.com/flerine.atienza/posts/10157809155575360
On today's edition of what Fler finds while en commute on the above-ground M train...
I just scrolled through the #PakGanernChallenge (a campy handclap game like BigBooty and Ms. Mary Mack where you have to add more and speed up your tempo with each round) that’s been going viral in the Philippines, and I am LOVING IT. Look at all of the #carefree play on #gender which can be seen even in just the first few vids that pop up in the hashtag search!!! Here are some renditions for your enjoyment:
1. Basic PakGanern
2. Hypermasculine angry PakGanern
3. Trans woman teaching cis-males how to PakGanern
4. Slayyyyy PakGanern
5. Teaching white boys how to PakGanern
6. A cappella PakGanern
7. Homegirl PakGanern-ing pop music lyrics
And there you have it, folks. Galenngggg na man talaga!!! So freaking #hellapinoy and SO alive and funny.
Happy Monday, y'all. <3
We took a little trip to the Museum of Ice Cream!Read More
VIDEO: A conversation in my head unpacking the meaning of potential.Read More
To all women, people of color, LGBTQIA, and marginalized groups of human beings and souls - if your heart is breaking, if your spirit is crushed, and your hope dwindling, know this: you are important and you are loved. This is a letter to you from me, with a message written from my heart and ignited by fervor/desperation: 1) do not stop taking care of yourself and 2) do not stop being vocal.
1. Please remember to do something that brings you joy today (and every day). Sing your favorite song, laugh with your best friend, eat 12 oysters at your favorite dollar happy hour spot, text your mom you love her, whatever makes you happy - do it. You have to remember to put forth a little more effort in your little joys, especially during times of grief and rage. We have to remember to balance our minds, bodies, and souls for well-being.
2. Please do not stop feeling, emoting, writing, yelling, crying, creating. Today, you and I are writing history and you probably don't even realize it. Please hear me out.
If you grew up in public middle/high schools, you probably experienced history and literature the way I did - spending weeks of semesters memorizing dates and names of the 'classics,' the big battles, etc which in
the canon of western thought/practice was written from the perspective of the white male victor/conqueror/colonizer
...while the wipeout of Natives, entirety of slavery, women's rights to vote...were all reduced to little paragraphs you could memorize on a flashcard. Even in AP Art History we spent months on European art yet skipped or glossed over African, Asian, South American, and Polynesian art because of what would be tested. Hell, I earned my BA in Literature/Women's Studies/Art History and even I had no idea up until yesterday that the world's very first full novel was written by a JAPANESE WOMAN.
To my sisters, brothers, friends, cousins, colleagues suffering in marginalized communities; to those who are biting their tongues at work to not rattle the boss’ feathers because we are grieving - we mourn and weep and experience and complain and riot on social media because this gives us community - and this is OUR platform for history. Years, decades, eons from now the textbooks and reality of history cannot ignore the reactions of the populous - because our very ethos-in-real-time is now trackable and recorded in these hashtagged conversations. We have an advantage that our ancestors didn't, and that is immediate access to information AND having our individual voices being a part of the future written record of what ACTUALLY happened.
Don't stop sharing that meme, tweeting that thought, 'gramming that moment, or challenging that comment. Because to be victorious, we must find glory in the little things.
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Re-posted from original Facebook status:
The HAU5 went to Belize!Read More
AN INVENTIVE CULINARY PROJECT
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ALL PHOTOS SHOT BY FLERINE ATIENZA (C) 2014